That's our Lilly! Dave and I found her asleep in her bed just like this! She is pretty wonderful! Who needs a real sleeping mask! Goggles and a picnic napkin can just do about anything when they are in the hands of Lilly. Anyways-Which WWII mama coined that 'Make do or do without?"
I miss that silly kid very much. Lilly is the kind of kid who can use it up, wear you out, make you do, or do it out. She sometimes drives me bananas! She is everywhere, has a comment about everything, and wonders what you are going to do about it. "It" being everything! From the moment she wakes up she wants to know the plan or more clearly she tells you the plan. Sometimes I need a time out from her. She completely wears herself out everyday and snores loudly all night. She wears me out! Strangely she reminds me of someone I know. I am sure Dave feels the same way about me sometimes, especially when I hear him snoring at night.
This year has been a very strange year. I have a lot of guilt tied up into how I have mothered her. On the one hand I have one child who is very sick with Leukemia and really needs me. And, on the other I have another child who also needs me and I feel like I have completely ignored her. I have just sort of shoved her on the bus every morning with a bagel in her hand and ran a comb through her hair two seconds before we stepped out the door. I have waved from my car window as I have dropped her off at Icky Gooey Science Camp, gymnastics, and dance. Not that I don't fret, worry, and love her. But, sometimes it was all I could do this winter. Lilly did not get to be a kindergarten baby. I hope it all turns out OK, when I look back at my life of mothering. I hope both of my children don't remember too much of this nightmare.
We sent her to family for part of the summer to ensure she had some fun, and to help us with Josie's demanding chemo therapy. It is very strange to not have her around. It is lonely. Did I actually say that about my little whirl wind? This is the longest I have ever be away from her. I know she is having the time of her life with her grandparents and cousins but I feel very anxious. I was glad/torn for her to go because I was feeling a little overwhelmed with Josie and felt like it would be good for Lilly. But I really miss her. I guess make do or do without also works for me right now, in every aspect. A big thanks to those doing it for me right now with Lilly. I couldn't do it right now and I wish I could.
